FINDING MY PERSONAL STYLE

Hi everyone. How are you all? I'm currently sitting in bed on this Monday morning thinking about the week ahead, and what I am going to be doing. The main thing I am going to be doing is cracking on with all my University assignments, because I am kinda slacking on it all, especially my dissertation (oops). I'm actually staying with my friend over the next few days so we are going to be having the laziest days ever, with coffee, TV, food and doing our assignments.

Today I wanted to talk about personal style, which is something that I am always trying to find and experiment with. I think its very important to find your personal style and to express your personality through your own style.

My personal style is always something which I have never quite found and I am still trying to find it.

I am someone who only ever wore black with some colour now and then because it made me look slimmer, and this is now something I am trying to avoid. Because that's not what personal style is, personal style is all about wearing clothing that you love. There is a lot of clothing which I always want to wear but I just never do because I don't feel confident enough to wear it. I have this constant thought in my head of 'I wish I could wear that'.

I am really trying to wear a lot more colour now, because I know it makes me stand out and it also gives me more personality. Even with make up, I am trying to make it more fun and wear different colours other than plain nude all the time. I love colour, and I definitely do not express my personality though my clothing enough of who I am because I'm so afraid of what other people think sometimes. But, I am a very bubbly and a person who wants to do everything, travel everywhere and experience everything fun in life. If i'm wearing boring and dull colours all the time then that doesn't really show who I am, does it? Wearing dull clothing all the time is not what or who I want to be.

Finding my personal style definitely has a lot to do with learning to love myself and I also find that I compare myself with a lot of other bloggers personal style rather than looking up to them. I try to be them instead and this is not the right way to finding my personal style. The right way to finding my personal style is to always try new things, which I don't do and I know that I have to.

I am always scared to try on clothes sometimes in case it doesn't fit me, or I look at it and think 'I'm not going to bother, because it won't even suit me'. I know that I can't keep thinking like this and that I have to try different styles of clothing because that is the way to finding my personal style. I have to wear clothing which I love and feel comfortable in, and not care what people think about me.

I want to wear more colours, wear different styles of tops and coats and also wear more types of trousers - I have always been a girl who lives in leggings, because they're so easy and I can wear them with anything. But, I want to spice it up and start wearing more jeans and different styles of trousers.

I am someone who lives fashion and style so much, and someone who aspires to be a stylist, so it's not good for me to not even have the confidence to find my own style. However, I'm very good at styling pieces together as long as I'm not wearing them myself usually. There is so much that I desire to wear.

If you guys have any other tips in to helping me finding my personal style, then please comment!

What I'm Wearing

Red coat - New Look (similar one from ASOS here)

Boots - Miss Pap (similar from PLT here)

Top - Boohoo

A weekend in London: Part 2

So, this is the next part of my weekend in London a few weeks ago. I decided to do two parts because we had 2 days there so I thought it would have been better for me to talk about each day in two separate posts.

On the Sunday Morning, we went out for breakfast at a Wetherspoons and it was so nice getting up early knowing that we still had a whole day left. This day was a day where we wanted to do as much as possible, so we went for breakfast and then headed to Camden Market on the tube.

Camden market was one of the most inspiring and unique places I have ever been and I couldn't believe I had never visited this place before.

After Camden Market, we made our way to brick lane which I wanted to visit for such a long time and it was such a lovely experience. Unfortunately, we didn't have time to go in any of the restaurants or the shops, but it was so nice and I will soon be visiting brick lane again at some point so I can visit some of the stores and coffee shops.

The artwork on brick lane was just incredible and I couldn't help but get some photographs of it all. The people who have created this art work are just so talented and they should definitely be proud of theirselves for having talent like this.

London is such a beautiful place and I cannot wait to live there one day. There are so many nice areas for photography and so many beautiful places to visit. 

SELF LOVE: LEARNING TO LOVE YOURSELF

I wanted to dedicate this post to not only myself but to my friends and the people out there who find it hard to love themselves. Loving yourself is the most important thing in life. I have a friend who inspired me to write this, because she believes she won't find someone who likes her due to her being plus size and I feel like there's so many people out there that put themselves down, so if you are one of these people, then please carry on reading. I want you to listen to my own personal experience and views and realise that you are beautiful the way you are.

Sometimes in life, things get you down, and you always find things to put yourself down and the internet is something which affects many of us. I know this from my own experience. Everyone will always look at another person on Instagram and compare themselves (I do anyway) and it is something which cannot be helped sometimes. Sometimes you will look at other people and think 'Why don't I look like that?' or 'Why can't I have what they have?' but that's okay. It's okay to be different, it's okay to not have everything that someone else has and it's okay not to look exactly the same as someone else. If everyone in the world looked the same, it would be boring.

I know that a lot of people can be so so horrible and you will always be judged no matter what you look like and what you do. The internet is a good one to mention because someone will always find something to say and won't be afraid to say it because they are hiding behind a keyboard. It is so easy for someone to make a nasty comment on a post on Instagram which you have uploaded or a YouTube video you have posted, all because you are plus size, or too skinny, a weird shaped bum or nose, or even if you are gay or a lesbian. Something is never right in this world and there are so many things which people can fault, but these things have to be ignored. You cannot let words hurt you and you have to know that these people mean nothing to you, and that you have so many people around you who love you for who and what you are. These things are what matters the most in life.

Personally, I thought I would never find a boyfriend because I thought I was too ugly and too big for guys. Guys have said some mean things to me in the past and so have girls, just because I may not be pretty enough or weigh a bit more than most people. I am a size 16, and have always grown up thinking it was wrong because I was bullied and had so many people call me fat. But now that I am older and almost 21, I've realised that it's actually okay to be plus size and that I am not the only girl in the world who is plus size. I have a family who love me, friends who love me and a boyfriend who supports and loves me for everything I am and everything I do, so nothing else matters to me. As long as I have these people in my life, then that's all I care about. I have started to ignore what people think of me and done my own thing, and it has helped me so much to be happy.

Even though I'm plus size, I do try a lot of diets to help me to lose weight and I am pretty healthy. I eat fruit, vegetables and yoghurts a lot, drink at least 2 litres of water a day and also go to the gym 2/3 times a week. I do eat a pizza now and then with some chocolate but I do not want to be a size 16 my whole life, because its not what I want. But, I am still happy the way I am and being this size does not affect me in any way any more, because I've learnt to accept who I am and learnt to love myself.

If you don't think you are beautiful enough, then you have to realise that you are and that it's okay to be your own individual. It's okay to be gay, bisexual, transgender, lesbian, skinny, fat, a different race and everything else which people tell you is wrong and may be horrible to you about. Loving yourself is the key to happiness and don't let anyone else tell you that you're not beautiful the way you are, no matter what you look like, who you are or where you come from.

Jumper - New Look
Shoes - New Look
Trousers - New Look